“I Have No Idea What I’m Doing” Syndrome

Eight Pax, took the Daily Red Pill (DRP) this morning and got better because for it.


The Pax: Squirrel, Roadhouse, Scout, CPT D, MadBum, Neo, Poacher and Jeb

The Scene: Five-thirty in the morning the Pax’ eyes glowed as the stars twinkled and the dew lay thick upon the grass

Warm Up:  Cotton Pickers, Hamstring and Side stretches and trunk twist

The Thang: Four rounds for time…Grab a coupon. 

Round 1 is body weight, round 2 with coupon, round 3 body weight, round 4 with coupon

50 Air Squats
40 Big Boy Situps
30 Merkins / PlyoMerkins
20 Front lunges (pairs)
10 Burpees / Blockee’s
400 Meter Run

No one finished all four rounds, however Poacher was pretty darned close!


  • QSource Zoom call tomorrow, Topic: The M.  McFly is leading.

Prayer requests:  CPT D’s parents as they venture back out into the world after being holed up for months, continued prayers for Dockers as he rests in solitude and peace for God’s nudge toward his next adventure.

Neo lead us out in prayer

MOLESKINE:  “I have no Idea what I’m doing at Work” Syndrome

If you know what you’re doing all the time, feel free to stop reading this Moleskine.  You probably have a meeting, a project, or a team that needs your unfailingly perfect insight.

On second thought, perhaps you should stick around. Because nobody—seriously, nobody—knows what they’re doing 100% of the time.  For all of us who have been in the position where you feel discouraged and frustrated because your don’t understand or can’t seem to grasp the concepts…welcome.

As I have continued to flail professionally my Shield Lock has told me, reminded me and re-reminded me they’ve been there too…it’s all good.  In the past few months I have started coming, slowly, to grips with living into a beginner’s mind – admitting I don’t know, asking others for help and saying thank you to those who come alongside. 

It’s definitely a challenge to constantly hear terminology that’s outside your wheelhouse, feeling like everyone else knows what they’re doing.  I was beginning (and sometimes still do) think everyone is better at what they do than me. But, guess what?  They’re not.  My self-doubt is/was not serving!  As Sprocket has said on occasion, “comparison is the thief of joy.” 

Doing things you haven’t done before — taking on more responsibility, leading a team, starting a new job, switching careers, or taking on a new project —  requires a certain amount of uncertainty, otherwise you’re just rinsing and repeating until your brain atrophies in the office cubicle.  Asking others to slow down and explain again and again makes me gulp and is humbling AND it helps you learn and grow. So, the next time you don’t know exactly what you’re doing, ask yourself, “What is the next right step?”  You don’t have to know all the steps to completion…just the next – right – thing. 

What everyone might think or say (sticks and stones…) doesn’t mean anything. Give it your best shot, learn from what happens, and then make your next right choice based upon new knowledge and awareness.

Here’s the best thing…God loves you.  I can honestly say I give sh*t about what you do for work or how good you are when you are at work.  Each of you bring your own special light and life into the world and work has nothing to do with it.  Do yourself a favor (I’m working on me), drop the syndrome and love yourself for who and where you are!


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